The struggle is real!

The 2 week liquid only diet is very difficult!  I am struggling day to day just to get out of bed.

I'm always hungry, never satisfied, weak, cranky, tired, and nauseous.

To say that it will be worth it in the end is an understatement.  I know that what I'm doing is for the best but at the same time, I just don't want to do this anymore.

I've hit that wall... Monday will be one week of the liquid diet and one week until surgery day.

I'm starting to get scared.  I know everything will be fine but this is major surgery!

I don't want my summer to be over but I want surgery to hurry up so I can move on.

I'm just wanting to curl up and sleep the next 8 days away.  My willpower isn't as strong as it was a few days ago.

There are times when I look at the food on the counter and just want to eat the banana or drown myself in nacho cheese at the movies.

This brick wall is thick and tall.  I need to figure out a way over it.  This is definitely not an easy way out, you have to have real strength and conviction to get through this part of the surgery.

I just don't know how strong I am right now.  Defeat is not something I take lightly so I just have to push through the wall or over the wall, however I'm going to get to the other side.

This is just my ramblings because I needed to get them out and express the frustration I feel.