Jan. 1st The day that changed my life

One year ago today I decided that I needed to make some serious changes in my life.  My life has changed for the better since that decision was made.

Although I have struggled... although I have fought... although I have battled, I regret nothing.  After having picked up two 10 pound bags of potatoes, I realized that 20 pounds is a lot.  Although it wasn't what I had hoped to have lost, it's still a lot!

I have done more in 365 days to better my body than I ever have in my life.

My biggest accomplishment was doing 3 5k's and running about 1 and a half miles in the last one.

My body is ready for more!  My goal is another 20 pounds this year.  It's not a very lofty goal but it's a goal none the less.  It's realistic too!  I have to say whatever over 20 pounds I lose is totally a bonus.

I have a goal to blog 3 times a week. I'll be finishing up grad school and taking a kick ass vacation in March so it might be tough but it will be done!

Tomorrow's topic.... goal making.

Thought of the day:

Almost a month

It has been close to a month since I last posted.  I have been crazy busy since my last post.

Finals are over, things went well, I came out of the Fall 2012 semester with A's.  I have one more semester to until graduation.  I'm super ready to be done and super ready for my life to be on schedule again.

I feel like I have done really well with the holidays.  I'm not over eating, using portion control, and doing well at picking the right things.

There was a sad day in the day in the life of my training.  The gym I go to is closing.  I had a panic moment until I talked to Joe.  I will still be able to work with my trainer and I feel like everything will work out for the best.

I'll make sure to post more over Winter Break.

Until later...

Thanksgiving and such

Happy Thanksgiving to all! Happy Anniversary to my dad and step mom!

Although there is a ton of food, I'm making wise choices.

Last night my dad and step mom made our own Thanksgiving dinner.  Dad made his awesome Chicken Alfredo!  Each time he makes it, it's different but oh so good!  I hope to some day make it like my dad but that's for another time.

I ate way more than I should have and didn't eat enough veggies.  Good news though, since my dad is diabetic, he uses DreamField pasta so the carbs aren't that high.

Today is traditional meal with my mom and brother.

Turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, gravy, pumpkin pie, yams, rolls, fruit salad with my great grandmother's secret fruit sauce (I haven't seen the recipe yet but mom can give it to me as long as I don't give it to anyone... sorry folks!), and a new tradition... Alton Brown's Baked Mac and Cheese (easy to make, smells yummy, hope it tastes good!).

Things are going well, I've kicked up the weight loss and exercise again.  I just really got off target for awhile.  Back to it Rebekka!

I'm hoping to blog more now that this semester is wrapping up.  Look for more from me.

Happy Thanksgiving, Happy Eating, Safe Travels!

The Fat Girl in the Corner
AKA Rebekka

Queen

Am I a queen?  In my own world!

This post isn't about someone being a queen, it's about the band!

Just think of how much more great music would have been created if Freddie Mercury was still around.

One of their songs makes me smile.

Some people have a thing for those of use that are plump.  Some call them "chubby chasers"!

Queen got it right with this song!



Thank you Queen for acknowledging that we "make the rockin' world go 'round!"

Thought of the Day:
Be proud to be a Fat Bottomed Girl, Freddie Mercury would have approved!

Blogging?

*Knock knock knock*  Hello?!  Rebekka are you there? 

The blog-a-verse is lonely without me.  Life gets in the way of the blog.  It sucks that I have to work and do homework!  LOL!

Anyway, I'm feeling good about things right now.  Everything seems to be falling into place. 

Workouts are going well, eating could be better but going well, and my classes are rockin'!  The one teacher that I have struggled to keep a "B" in that class loves my work this semester for some reason.  98% BABY!!!!

I'll have to take my "Biggest Loser" pictures to update you on my body progress.  I'm very happy about how I look.  All my clothes are fitting weird so things are looking a little saggy.  I'm at the end between sizes stage so clothes are not fun right now. 

I promise to blog more now that the semester is winding down.

You may have to remind me!  Keep me accountable!

Until then...

It's been too long Part 2

I figured that I would make tonight a 2 parter since I had so many pictures in the other one.

I had been doing rather poorly in terms of my diet there for awhile and frankly the exercise sucked too. I got back on it after a slight fall down the mountain and now I'm doing better than ever before.

I'm viewing this journey as a hike up Mt. Everest.  I started at the bottom of the mountain and am working my way to the top.  The top will be my permanent home. I don't plan on coming down the mountain.

Emotionally this has been a rough few weeks as well.  Work stress and personal life stress have taken it's toll on me.  Luckily I have many wonderful people in my life that support me and love me for me. Everyone else can suck it!  You either support me or don't.  Don't fake it!

Last week I spent some time with my mom.  She lost her husband only 1 short year ago and because of him, we have both made some life changes that for the best.

The roller coaster isn't quite as crazy as it has been but I still think it could slow down and let me breathe a little.

Thought of the day/week/month:


Libby the Ladybug says, "Dot your life with love and friends... and be grateful for all you have."

It's been too long!

Hello loyal followers!

I have been on a roller coaster lately both emotionally and physically.

On October 6th I made a trip to Lawrence KS (Rock Chalk!)!  I did my 3rd 5k!

I must say that I have renewed my own knowledge that I CAN in fact change my life.

I ran a total of 1.5 miles of the Color Run 5K.  It was not in one go but it was enough for me to know that I am getting healthier and stronger each and every day.

Before the Color Run... It was COLD!

Crossing the finish line!  Yes I'm running!

Color Cloud!  Those are so much fun!

I'm completely covered in color!
Including my teeth.

Lolly pop?!  No, the Color Run!

It was white and clean... now not so much! 

My support system for the day!
Erika is a wicked awesome cupcake!
Check out her blog!  Cupcake Hippie :)

Erika had never been to Lawrence before
o of course we had to visit campus.

I just love this guy!

He needed a kiss!
I met one of my best friends at KU so
I have a lot to be thankful
for from this awesome bird!

Rock Chalk

My job

Some days I complain about the students.  Some days I complain about the work load.  Some days I complain about the politics of education.

But...

On days like today, it just seemed off and nothing seemed to work out the way I wanted, one thing is for sure; my students can make me smile.

Sweet moment number one... I was helping one of the first grade teachers test today.  She has lost her voice!   The students never did find it though.  Anyway, a special friend brought me a poster signed by all the students with a piece of candy from each student!  I nearly cried right there!  Thank you Heather E.!!!!

Sweet moment number two... Same little friend is telling me all about Spiderman (no surprise if you've heard my stories) and starts drawing Spiderman for his writing he'll do Thursday.  At the top of his paper I see this...

He told me it is a "radybug cause you like dem!"  Then he gave me a hug!  Tears started to form!









Sweet moment number three... I got a new little friend on my roster last week. She's just cute as a bug!  Since she has very little English, I have started working with her.  She has attached herself to me now!  I told her that I would take her to the bus.  I was holding her hand and a parent stopped me in the hall.  The girl was pulling on my hand and I shook her hand and gave it a little squeeze.  She squeezed back and smiled her big toothless smile.  She was just playing a game with me.  Too cute!

It's those kinds of things that make not so good days even better!

Logo

Here she is!  Isn't it beautiful!

My wonderful friend Pam Kurzen did this!  You can find her here http://www.pamkurzen.com/

Love ya lady!  You are awesome!

Realities

Okay, so let me tell you something.

The reality of my body is pretty nasty!

I'm ashamed of it really.  There are folds where there used to be fat, there are wrinkles of skin where there used to be fat, I have a heat rash or something on my thighs, between my thighs and stomach and near my lady parts.

See... not pretty!

On the other hand, I know there are some realities that will just always be and I'm okay with that.

#1 My thighs will forever touch when I walk and stand.
#2 I will never be able to see my feet without bending over.  The girls are preventing that from happening once the tummy flattens.
#3 At some point in my journey, I will have to have surgery to remove this sagging gross skin.
#4 I will never be 100% happy with my body but I figure if I can get to 80% then I'm doing pretty damn good.

Forgive me for saying this...

Always remember that your life is yours and not someone else's.  Live it the way you want to live and how you know you should live rather than how others THINK you should live.