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Sunday, March 31, 2013

Food, Fun, Sun, and Regret Part 1

Spring break is over :(

I am sad that it is over yet I'm ready for a routine again.

The title may be a little confusing so I'll explain.

Food... god the food!  Lots of buffets, lots of food, lots of choices.  I ate WAY more than I should have.  I didn't count a single calorie.  

Fun... I had so much fun!  
I got to hold a baby alligator :)

An alligator is so soft, yet had hard scales.  It was weird but so cool at the same time!

"Almost" getting eaten!
So we "almost" got eaten.  Okay, not really BUT we could have.  There was nothing between this alligator and us.  So freakin' cool!

So here we are!  Sitting in the sun, on the cruise ship waiting for the boat to leave for the Bahamas.  
That night was awful!  The sea was a cruel mistress that night and threw us around like pinballs.  It was awful but funny.  After having been accused of being drunk (although we hadn't had a single drink yet) we decided what the hell!  
This was drink #2 for the night.  It's kind of funny, Lynn took pictures of me and I took pictures of her.  I have very few pics of myself.
The next morning, we arrived in Freeport, Bahamas!  It's beautiful and amazing!  We had so much fun and spent the first day on the island drinking and eating. 

Drinking had begun and Lynn found herself an islander :)

That night we went to a Bonfire on the beach, it was very cool!
Day 2 started off with a beautiful sunrise...

Continued to...
Moved on to...
Then some more...
We ended the night with...
It was sad to see the Bahamas adventure end. Before we left though, we walked around this little shopping area.
This pretty little fountain was our last touristy thing to do.
That night we got on the ship and watched the KU/North Carolina game (first half anyway) and enjoyed a show on the ship.

Sun... We were both sunburned, poor Lynn's legs were worse than mine :(  I'm peeling but have an awesome tan now :)

I'll update more later and describe the regret.  It's not nearly as bad as you think (think food and exercise).

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Bon Voyage!

In just a few short hours I'll be on a plane flying to Ft. Lauderdale to meet up with one of my best friends for a vacation like I've never done before!  I'm super excited to do this and can't wait to share many stories and pictures with everyone!

Saturday, March 16, 2013


Thursday the dreaded stomach flu found me.

I finally woke up hungry today.  I haven't been hungry since Wednesday night although I forced myself to eat.

Thursday morning, I thought a diet Dr. Pepper sounded good.  I got one.  Unfortunately, even though I only got a small one, I couldn't finish it.

In my brain, diet Dr. Pepper is now associated with puking my guts out.    That used to be my soda of choice when I would drink one (Diet A&W Root Beer is my other).

The last time this happened to me, I was student teaching in the Fall of 2006.  I associated Ramen Noodles with puking my guts out.  It took me years before I could eat them again.

I know that food associations happens. I have other really positive ones.

What food associations do you have?

On a different note...


It's a Sunflower Showdown for the Big 12 Title!  RCJH! KU!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013


Dear Gym Bitch,

I truly enjoyed watching your face as I was trying to battle through my workout today with my trainer.  I noticed that you were very interested in everything that I was doing today. You may be very skinny, wearing Under Armor, and was running on the treadmill earlier.  I noticed that you changed the weights on the machine to less then what I was doing (haha, I'm better than you).

I noticed the look on your face as you looked at me.  Were you thinking about my fat rolls?  Were you thinking about how disgusting a fat person looks?  Judging me and others does not get you anywhere in life.  Watching you watch me just made me want to work even harder.

Please re-evaluate your views on people...

Yours truly,
The Fat Girl in the Corner

Monday, March 4, 2013

Days like today...

On days like today, I'm so grateful that I work with 5/6/7 yr olds.  First thing this morning one little guy comes up to me, gives me the biggest hug and says, "Ms. Brosemer, you look like a party!"  (1st grader)

I can only hope he means I look like I could go to a party!  LOL!

Later in the day, right after lunch one girl looks at me and says, "You look like a ladybug but black and white."  (kindergartener) LOL!  I had on a black shirt with white polka dots.  I never thought of it that way, but thank you little lady!

As I was leaving my last class today, I had two different girls give me a hug (kindergarteners).  One said, "you look really bootiful!" (translation: beautiful) and the other said, "you are so pretty!"

I love my job!

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Self-doubt, sabotage, forgiveness

You are your own worst enemy!

Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.
 Lies!  All lies!  Sticks and stones may break my bones... True!  But words will never hurt me... FALSE!!!!!!!!!!!

Words often hurt worse then the sticks and stones.  I still hear the mean things people have said to me.  I repeat these self-deprecating words often.

That is why I am my own worst enemy.  I have to stop the negative self-talk.  This doubt and sabotage does me no good.  My mind is always working overtime.

How do you turn off this self-talk?

If you know, by all means, please share!  Here is what my mind sounds like right now:

Going to a tropical island... you are an idiot!  How can you go?  You are fat!!  Why would anyone want to look at you?  You have to wear a swim suit, dumbest decision you have ever made!  You are just wasting your money!  You won't have a good time, you will be too worried about what you are eating, what you look like, and how many people are making fun of you!


See... awful self-talk, self-doubt or whatever you want to call it.

I have to learn to forgive myself, that is not the easiest to do.  I have to change the way I talk to myself. This is not the easiest to do.  You would think that after a year of changing my thinking and changing my body that I would have started on this path.  Not so much :(

Don't let this sabotage you like it is sabotaging me.