Memorial Day

Thank you to those who have served our country and lost their lives.

Thank you to those who have served our country.

I was watching Dr. Oz today.  I never watch him, I get annoyed.  But the promo for Curvy Girls caught my eye.  As I was watching a lot of what he said was true and things that I'm already doing.  One thing though irritated me.

He said that men find curves sexy and it's okay to be curvy.  Now before you all start in on me, he made a generalization about men.  Not all men like curves.  I've been turned down for dates because I was skinny with boobs the size of watermelons.  Those men like curves alright, the bouncy fake ones that make a girl look top heavy.

Now yes, most men like curves but some like them bouncy and fake while others like the hour glass, figure 8 curves.  Just don't generalize people in that way.

A lady that he had on today said that "you don't have to be thin to be healthy".  Agreed! Let me clarify something here.  You can't be healthy at 400 pounds, but if I have some of Winnie the Pooh's "fluff n' stuff" but can run a half marathon, then yes, I am healthy if the doctor says so.

I haven't been eating well the last few days and need to get out there and move more.  The gym closed at noon today and I didn't know that.  I wanted to do some strength training.  Oh well, I can tomorrow.  I did do some stretches on the yoga ball.  I have learned that if I lay on it and roll backwards, my back gets a good stretch.  I also turn over on my stomach and roll forward on it.  That stretching feels so good!  I had also don't some tables to work the abs!

Later tonight, is going to be a nice long walk.  I'm going to wait for the weather to cool down a little first.

Off to do homework!

Thought of the day:

That moment...

when you awake from sleep and realize that the very realistic dream you had was in fact a dream.  I woke up crying.  I could reach out and touch my grandparents in this dream.  I got to hug them, touch them, smell the pipe, feel the grass in the yard, dead head the garden, and just sit and talk to my grandparents.

This was taken Christmas 2002, our last Christmas with her.  I just love this picture because of the way Grandpa is looking at Grammy.  He truly loved her with every breath he took.

That is something I want to do again.  I know within this life I will not do it but within my dreams I can.  It was so realistic that it almost made me sick to know it wasn't real.  I've been in a funk all day because of that dream.  I haven't been able to concentrate and I just want to go back to sleep to dream again.  

One thing that always helps me get out of my funk is listening to Sarah McLachlan.  I spent part of my day watching Daria and the rest listening to Sarah.  She was someone that grammy loved as well.  Every time I go to see her in concert, I end up in tears at some point.  But it's always out of happiness with some sorrow.  Ice Cream always puts a smile on my face (grammy loved it too!) and I have to sing along loudly and Out of Tune (another fabulous song by the way).

I think I have done a good job today of not eating my feelings.  All I've wanted to do was to eat to feel better.  I had some fruit instead of junk.  Of course, I don't have a lot of junk in the house but that's not the point.  I went for a stroll but just didn't feel it so now I'm back blogging hoping that will pull me out of this funk.  

My thought of the day comes from Daria.  I love that show and wish it was still on but I have the DVD's and Hulu so I can watch it when I want.  It just seemed profound and for some reason needed to be said.  

Thought of the day:

Otherwise, my advice is stand firm for what you believe in, until and unless logic and experience prove you wrong. Remember, when the emperor looks naked, the emperor is naked. The truth and the lie are not "sort of" the same thing. And there's no aspect, no facet, no moment in life that can't be improved with pizza. 
~Daria Morgandorffer in Is It College Yet?

Checking in

Quick update...

Life has been busy!  Lots of changes in life!  Some changes are good, some are bad, some are to be determined.

I'm going into week 3 of one class and week 1 of another.  The next 3 weeks are going to be insane.

2 classes, all kinds of randomness at school, work outs, a visit from my stepsister and niece, Symphony in the Flint Hills, and oh, did I mention sleep?

1 month and 5 days until the Color Run.

Bring it on life!  I'm ready!

Thought of the day:

Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts.
Arnold Bennett

So True....

So, when it comes to eating healthy, it's just doing the right thing. And it's not something you have to do 365 days a year, but I think it's something you have to do 25 days a month. Let's put it that way.
Mike Ditka

So I think Mike Ditka is actually a woman.  For 5 days a month I ignore my diet.  Not because it's something I think about but because well, it's just easier that way.  If it happens it happens.  


Just remember not to let one day ruin your journey to health!

Eat one thing that makes you happy today!

Hello again, it's been awhile....

15

So... I'm finally closing in on 15 pounds.

I changed my number of calories per day from 1980 to 1700.  Deciding to do this didn't come easy.  My body had gotten used to eating 1980 calories.  Making the change will take some getting used to.  I think doing this will move my weight loss forward.  I had gotten frustrated with where I was.  I wasn't happy staying at where I had plateaued.

There are 45 days until the Color Run and I don't feel like I'm getting very far.  My body is yelling at me to keep moving.  My brain is telling me to keep moving.  My responsibilities are telling me that I need to spend some time on Grad. School.

I'm just stressed and over the limit right now. Summer school may have been a bad idea....

Off to do some work!

Until later...

Thought of the day:

Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all the moms, grandmothers, and moms of 4 legged children!

I decided to go to a different gym today since mine was closed.  It was strange being in a room with no windows.  I found Dirty Dancing on the TV!  I just love that movie!  I made it 33 minutes on the elliptical.  I'm hoping to increase my time by 5 minutes on Tuesday.

I think yesterday when my massage therapist was working out my knots in my back I ended up with a pinched nerve.  My right leg and arm are tingly and numb.  The numbing didn't happen until after my workout but it was tingly and had that "arm asleep" feeling.

If I need to go back to the massage therapist on Tuesday I can.  I really hope that it will work itself out so we'll see.

Summer classes start tomorrow so the posts will be sporadic for awhile.

Until tomorrow...

Thought of the day:

9 years

9 years ago today my family lost it's matriarch.  Phyllis Williams Brosemer aka Grammy was an amazing woman that held our family together. The family just hasn't been the same since we lost her.  I miss her every day and had to have a good cry for all the family I have lost.

Today I had a massage.  Apparently I had a lot of knots in my back.  We didn't get them all worked out but the majority are out.  While I was laying on the massage table, I did have a good cry.  It was from the pain leaving my body and from the emotional pain.  It felt good to get it out.

Yesterday I went to the zoo with the first graders.  I was so exhausted when I got home that I literally was striping off my clothes on the way to the bathroom, took a shower, ate something small, and passed out on the couch.

Summer classes start on Monday, it's going to be a long 5 weeks.  Wish me luck!

You might not hear from me regularly for the next 5 weeks but I will definitely try.  Tomorrow is a training day.  Yeehaw! Can't wait to get moving tomorrow since today was a lazy day.  It's bedtime for now though.

Until tomorrow...

Thought of the day:

long day

It was a long day. Tonight was the kinder/1st grade Spring Program.  It was the cutest thing!  I didn't get home until about 8:30.

Tomorrow is the zoo with 1st grade.

Ah the end of the year!  Everything is down hill from here.  June 12th here we come!

Off to bed... Until tomorrow...

Thought of the day:

May 9th

I really want to buy an elliptical.  I just don't think it's a good idea though. I need to pay off a crown for a tooth and want to pay off my car.

I am going to be getting a little bit of a refund on my financial aid so I do plan on doing the 12 1-hour sessions of personal training at the Y.  I train in 30 minute sessions so it's actually 1 hour a month so for like $450 I will be getting a year of personal training sessions.  If that isn't motivation, I don't know what is.

Today was one of those days that's makes me want to go to bed.  It was 6:30 and I was in the bathtub, then laying in bed by 7:45.  I did decide to paint my nails in a sparkly purple finger nail polish just to make myself smile. Sparkles are awesome!

It is 8:20pm. I can't keep my eyes open.  I think it is bedtime.

Until tomorrow...

Thought of the day:

Time...

Reading for pleasure, watching a movie, playing with the cat, watching tv, pinning, crafting, exercising, and sleep.

What do all of these have in common?  Give up?  They take time!

The last few weeks have given me no time at all. Now that I have a week to breathe, I'm taking full advantage.  I've seen 4 movies, started 2 new shows on Netflix, stepped up the exercise, played with Mr. William, and have started a book.

Go me!

So on the exercise front, I decided to try out the elliptical today.  The last time ended up less then 5 minutes.  Today was 27 or 28 minutes.  I had to stop a few times because my toes started going numb.  I need to figure out how to remedy that.

I also had a session with my trainer.  He said that he was very impressed with how far I've come.  I exhausted less quickly now and that he has to push me harder to tire me.  I'm sore tonight and can barely lift my arms.

Get out and enjoy this weather, it won't stay around for long.

Until tomorrow....

Thought of the day:

May 7th

It was a stressful week last week!

I can finally get back to blogging!  I have missed it!

There are a lot of changes happening at the personal and professional levels.  I just really think that most of these will be for the best.  In about a month I get to see my step-sister and niece!  I'm so excited!  They live so far away so I don't get to see them very often.  We are going to be going to the Symphony in the Flint Hills.  It is a beautiful wonderful thing. http://www.symphonyintheflinthills.org/

So exercise was pretty non-existent last week.  It's time to get my ass moving again. Tomorrow I meet with my trainer, Thursday I have a SIT meeting and the kinder/1st grade spring concert. Wednesday is my only day this week I will be home by 5pm.  Yikes!

Happy Teacher Appreciation Week!
Thank a teacher if you can read this!

I'm off to relax and enjoy not having anything pressing to do....

Until tomorrow...

Thought of the day:
Why do teachers make so little yet do so much?  Without us, the doctors, lawyers, and athletes wouldn't be where they are today. 

Another 5k?!?!

I have signed up for another 5k!

The Glow Run
http://glowrun5k.com/kc.php

A group of us from school is doing it. It is on July 14th so 2 weeks after the Color Run.

I'm getting both nervous and excited for them.  After tomorrow, the training will step up!

A week from Monday, summer school starts, I'm so excited... NOT!

I had to take a quick break from my paper.  2 more pages to go and I may end up at the funny farm with free drugs and no responsibilities.

Not looking forward to my thesis at this rate.  I wonder if I can take a sabbatical so I don't end up hurting myself or others.

I want to run off this energy but I just don't seem to have the time right now.  Tomorrow... it has to be...

Off to get more work done....

Thought of the day:
Procrastination isn't... wait what?!

Quick update

Feeling lousy from stress, got one paper done and turned in, one final taken (84/100) and the following is left...
one 5-page paper due Friday by 5pm
finish my wikispace by Friday 5pm
take one final by Saturday midnight

60 Days until the Color Run time to step it up!

More later when I don't feel pressed for time!

Until then...

Thought of the day:
Stress makes your body do strange things.