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Thursday, July 2, 2015

The Gastric Sleeve Journey

So the scary part is the surgery and recovery.

With the particular clinic I am using, they require a free seminar.  Basically, you get the information about the different surgeries and ask questions.  It was informative but still was a little overwhelming.

After filling out the information, the doctors review your information and determine whether you are a candidate or not.  Then you wait for the call.

I got the call a few days later to set up an appt.  The problem that I have is that my insurance SUCKS!  So I had to come up with the money... thanks to my family, I was able to get a loan.

My process has been fast.  From the seminar to surgery was June 15 to July 20.

Today I attended a required education class.  I read the binder before going so it really didn't tell me anything new.

I have to have an endoscopy and lab work next week (not 100% on the endoscopy reason).

I also have to have a consult with a psychologist.  I'm crazy but I hope that doesn't come thru in the eval.  :)

Two weeks before the surgery you have to go on an all liquid diet to shrink your liver.  It's high protein and sugar free.  I start this on July 6.  It's going to be a long bitchy 2 weeks.

On surgery day, they will only have me in the OR for about 30 minutes with about an hour in recovery.  I have to spend the night in the hospital but my mommy will be there with me!  Typically, you go home the next day if there are no complications.

For the first 2 days home, I am only allowed water.  Hydration is a huge issue.

Then for the next 2 1/2 weeks pureed food only.

The purpose for this is to not get chunks of food stuck in the staples in the stomach and cause infection.

They said that I will pretty much be in bed the first few days but am required to get up and walk around the house 3-5 times.  To me that reads, "shower and pee".

After the first week I will go back and get my staples removed and have a follow-up.  I'm pretty okay with that.  If I am off my narcotic pain meds I can drive.

I will be able to go back to work at the beginning of August.  I just can't lift anything over 15 pounds for the first month or more.

My friend said that after 3 weeks he was walking around an amusement park... no thanks, I'll do other stuff instead.

I will go back for a 2 month, 6 month, 1 year, 2 year, 3 year etc. follow-up.  Not too bad if I do say so myself.

With everyone's support and knowledge of the steps, I know I can do this and will have a great outcome!

I'll try and post as this goes on, I think it's important to talk about the journey.

Tough Decisions Pt 3

What is the last resort?

I have spent many years with this decision in the back of my mind.

A doctor once told me that I was never going to be able to lose weight and to just give up.

Nope!  No!  No, no, no, no!

How dare he say that!  That was the moment in time I decided to take my health and my life back.

Now that I am 5 years out from working out with a trainer (recommended by a doctor with bedside manners), I am finally ready!

At 34 years old I am taking my life into my hands.  F the doctor that said I would never be able to do anything about my weight.

I have tried everything and nothing has stuck.

I have PCOS, insulin resistance, and fertility issues.

I want kids!  I want to feel good!  I want to live!













With that being said, on Monday July 20th at 9:15 I report to the hospital for gastric sleeve surgery.

YOU WHAT?!?!?!?!

You read that right, gastric sleeve!

This decision hasn't been made lightly.  It is major surgery and I will be losing the majority of my stomach.  My stomach will only be about 2 oz big from that point on.

This is something that I have full support from my parents, the boyfriend, and my 2 best friends in Texas (it's weird to say they live an hour from each other).

I can't do this without support.  One of my close friend's (ex boyfriend from high school and an awesome friend) and his fiancee have had the sleeve done and love it.  He was my inspiration for starting things up now.

I really didn't want to say anything about surgery until it got a little closer but I feel like an open dialogue is needed.

Let's start this dialogue....

Ask any questions you want!

Tough Decisions Pt 2

Matthew 7:1-3King James Version (KJV)

Judge not, that ye be not judged.
For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.
And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother's eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?
When it comes to weight and health issues, I will not judge.  I have faced everything you can imagine.
Recently, I was on vacation with my boyfriend and his 3 kids.  We went to Silver Dollar City and White Water.  Trying to ride with the kids was horrible.  It was so hard to get into the seats.  I was near tears many times.  
While riding the Flooded Mine, we put the girls in the front, the boy in the middle and the bf and I in the back.  Wow!  Was that a mistake!  Between us we could have sunk that boat!  Mr. 6'3" 189 lbs would have been just fine in the back of the boat alone.  
Between us we were 494 lbs!!!!!!  Not a good combo!!!
That moment was the moment when I realized that my decision was right.
What is there to do when you've tried it all?  How do you look at yourself in the mirror and decide enough is enough?
What is the last resort?

Tough Decisions pt. 1

Some decisions are pretty easy...

What should I have for dinner?
Which shoes should I wear while working out?
John or Paul?
Brown or black with pink?

Some decisions are very difficult and not to be done quickly...

Should I buy a house?
Should I go on vacation to Florida or California?
What should I get a master's degree in?
Should I get married/have a baby/start a family?

None of those decisions should be taken lightly (with the exception of the vacation question).

I made a decision a few years ago.  It was before I started the blog and before I really had any clue what this decision would entail.

As someone that has been overweight my entire life, I have tried it all.

South Beach.... check
Atkins.... check
Blood Type... check
Weight Watchers.... check
Low fat.... check
Paleo.... check
Vegetarian.... check

You name it!

I have also counted calories and done so many other things that you would think I was a master of all things diet!

I had to make a decision that will change my life.

Sunday, June 14, 2015

Back to it!

Hello dear readers!

I know it has been a very long time since my last post.  I just got too busy to blog!

Some life changes occurred and more are in the future.

I have been thinking quite a bit about some things.

The first thing that has been on my mind is this:

I wonder what I would look like if I lost ___ pounds.  How will I look if I'm  ____ pounds lighter?   Is that something others think about?  I stood in front of the mirror tonight pulling on my body and prodding at the fat.  Just curious what it would look like if my belly button is higher.

Does my face look better if I don't have 2 chins?


My other thoughts have focused around something my S.O. said to me last night.  We were in bed, talking in the dark and he asked me why I don't walk around naked.  I told him it was because I don't like my body.  I know my body doesn't gross out my S.O. but I feel weird being naked around others.
Being comfortable in ones own skin is really important.  I'm NOT comfortable in any way.  Although I know my S.O. likes my body, I don't.

How do you become comfortable in your skin?  If anyone has the answer, please share.


Look for more posts in the days, weeks, and months to come.  Some exciting and scary things are in my future.


Monday, July 28, 2014

Detox Days 7-12

Quick update...

eating got a little easier but I still hate it.  I have cheated a few times on the diet but I also know I have to listen to my body and do what is right for me.

Sometimes you just have to eat.  It was never an over eat but it was filling food.

I'm officially down 12 pounds and have plans to be under 300 very soon.

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I am able to start adding chicken into my diet on Thursday.  You have no idea how happy I am to eat meat again.

When this detox is over I will be starting what is called the Undergraduate Diet.  Basically it's the beginning of Paleo.

With my gazillion supplements I will take every day and a protein shake, I hope that things will get better internally.

My stomach doesn't seem to mind all the craziness.  It is definitely cleaning out.

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Wish me luck on days 13-30 that I stay strong!

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Detox Day 6

I've noticed I'm not as hungry as I have been.  I've really only eaten twice today.

I had a salad about 1:15 and then some soup about 6.  I did my two shakes today but other than that, nothing.

Today was a kind of cheat day.  I had two huge yummy bites of a cheeseburger.  I could have eaten a bunch of cheeseburgers but after I ate it, I immediately started feeling gross.  Pretty good sign right there huh?

I want to swing by the health food store tomorrow to get more soup.  It was really good and such a huge change in what I've been eating.  

5 more days until I can add meats... I know I can, I know I can, I know I can...

With support and encouragement, I can do it!

Detox Day 5

So my ring is practically falling off my hand.  That is a great thing!

I've noticed I'm not so bloated anymore!

I cheated yesterday and had 2 bean burritos.  I just couldn't do it for one more second.  I needed to feel full.  Big mistake!  I felt so sick afterwards. Lesson learned!

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I talked with a friend of 30+ years that had done this shake before.  She gave me hope and inspiration.  Thank you Rebecca!

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I also did my workout with my trainer yesterday.  He kicked my butt as always.

I'm getting stronger and able to do more now but it's still tough.

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I just hope that the next few weeks are smoother for me.  With school starting back up and life moving forward, things get a little crazy.

Here's to a smooth sailing the next few weeks.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Detox Day 3 & 4

Day 3

I drank my shake but didn't really want to eat anything else. For lunch there was some cheating.  I ate a salad, then I had some mashed potatoes, a small slice of pizza and a bread stick.

It was very hard to go out to eat!  This veggie and fruit detox is annoying!

I didn't think about it and at my niece's birthday party, I couldn't eat.  I should have brought food but didn't.

I didn't even eat cake even though I wanted to.  I did have a little frosting though.
Feeding Aunt Bekka
When I got home, I had a cucumber and that was it.  I just wasn't very hungry so I didn't eat.
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Day 4

I was a good girl today!  I had my shake this morning, although I didn't eat my fruit for breakfast until about an hour later.

I went to the grocery store to the salad bar and filled up a big container!  It was a fabulous tasting salad!

Dinner was a fruit smoothie.  I don't know if I should be drinking almond milk more than once a day but I did.
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I really need to find some alternatives to what I'm eating.  I'm getting bored.  I have 10 more days without meat so I need to figure something out.

The document that I was given has some recipes in it.  I think I'm going to try the tomato soup recipe, the veggie stew recipe and I don't know what else.

I'm looking for gluten-free, dairy free, vegetarian meals to get me through the next few weeks.

If you have any ideas, please let me know, I'm bored here...

Thought for today:
A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events and outcomes. It is a catalyst and it sparks extraordinary results.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Detox Day 2

Yesterday was difficult!

I've learned that if I chug the shake, it goes down pretty easy.  However... I was so hungry yesterday afternoon while I was packing and cleaning the apt. that I had some organic brown rice from Trader Joe's.  Not on my list of approved foods but whatever!  I needed to eat and didn't have any fruit in the apt.

Dinner was 1 pound... yes you read that right 1 pound of veggies!  It was really good, I drizzled some olive oil on them with some salt, pepper, and Mrs. Dash.  It was pretty good.  At least I didn't go to bed hungry.
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Saturday is my niece's first birthday party.  I'm a little nervous but can take my own food and will just say no to cake.  I know it will be tough but I can do it!
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I don't know what my starting weight was but I weighed today 306.8.  I'm not going to weigh myself daily but a few times a week.
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Here's to a good detox day 3!